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Pspspspspsps!

Listen to music I was into in my teens & twenties and sing out loud. Cook grub. Clean the flat. Read books on couch and go to sleep early. Probably start a project that will be left unfinished on the table. Enjoy the peace & quiet. Then walk around talking to myself and get annoyed for being lonely and bored.

Some fine lookin baguettes you got there!

We’ve spent the morning cleaning and organizing the cottage for winter. About to leave home soon. Fixed the porch yesterday and picked up funnel chanterelles and lingonberries. We’ve had a couple nights with minus degrees so berries were a bit mushy, but I’m planning to cook jam from them, so it shouldn’t matter. But I must say I haven’t used “old” lingonberries in jam before so we’ll see how it turns out. 😅

Judging by the look on its historical face, the bowls must’ve been empty already then

Fortunately no, it’s a family place so only partially ours. But losing this retreat that is within a reasonable driving distance from home would be a pity anyways.

We live in Finland now so yup, would have to move. I’ve always wanted to live abroad, for a while at least, so it would be nice to have that opportunity, but myself I really don’t like big cities so I’m worried how that would turn out. But it’s not certain yet and probably I shouldn’t get ahead of myself!

manul

Ahaa ahaa!

I was accepted to both those courses I applied to so had to make a decision which one to pick. I chose the more practical one which starts already next week. I’m super nervous about it and having a hard time calming down and not overthinking everything. And as if this wasn’t stressful enough my SO just found out about a position opening in Berlin and they’d have a good chance of being accepted for transfer - it’s something they’ve been dreaming of, so I encourage them. Heck, why does everything always happen at the same time?!

We are going to the cottage for the weekend and I hope picking mushrooms (if there’s any left) and being in nature will help with this stress…

Stomach issues here as well. Yesterday I had 2 interviews to courses I applied to and it was really stressful, I think after the recent burnout my system doesn’t deal with stress well and whenever something even mildly draining happens I feel sick and my stomach aches. Otherwise it has been a really gray day here, I biked a bit to see some second hand stores but didn’t find anything, the prices are so high nowadays and quality of stuff is low. I guess people just sell their used stuff online.

manul

🤔🤔

If you can’t afford fentanyl try worms instead!

Looks like you caught the Stranger Things monster looming in the sky!

Nuttius Raisinius, but hey, at least they appreciated the petit format back then!

Congrats! Hope you have a great day!

Have a nice vacation! Do you have any plans?

Apparently hyperfocusing on hobbies can be detrimental when recovering from burnout and at the same time burnout is detrimental to my hobbies. My attention span, patience and cognitive skills are way worse than usual and hyperfocusing is super draining even though it’s a nice motorcycle restoration project. If my SO wasn’t looking after me I’d make catastrophic mistakes all the time…

Excited to wake up to a new day, slightly confused, a bit of a hassle going on but there are some friendly faces around and I get to help those people fend off a dragon, everybody seems to be expecting great things of me!

…some months later I’ve lost the track of my life, no idea where I should be going, a long to-do list in the pocked I am sneak-archering through yet another draugr-filled cave, later I go pick up flowers and delivering notes instead of focusing on the big and important goals, what were they anyways? I seem to have ridden on this side path for too long and really need to find direction for my life. Everyone is waiting for me to save the day after all! I’ll just finish this one small thing and get to it –

Excited to wake up to a new day, slightly confused, a bit of a hassle going on but there are some friendly faces around and I get to help those people fend off a dragon, everybody seems to be expecting great things of me!