Thank you very much for your words! They helped.

Some things I want to add for clarification. I think that when the loneliness gets better by having one or two more friends and/or a significant other, that other problems might solve themselves too. I could reduce alcohol even more, spend more times on solo activities that I really enjoy. The loneliness fucks with me. Distorts my thoughts and feelings.

I may look for a running group, I just wish there could be a trans running group. I could imagine that in a gendered setting like running cis people, especially outside leftist circles, are not easy to be around, but I will try regardless. Can’t complain if I don’t try it.

About my job situation. I am a college dropout and never finished any training till this year so I just worked jobs I could get with my lousy CV. It should improve now. I may start my new job next month. Already had interviews there and we clicked, the work seems very nice.

That Lady Butterfly

Sounds rough, cant even imagine what history you two have. Stay strong.

I approve of this. Have fun

-600cc adventure bike rider

can confirm. I am basically invisible to people now. I would rate myself a 3/10

It really sucks and the worst part is that it can hit you in the worst ways. Transphobes have a wide range with their nonsense. You get comfortable with debunking one and they hit you with another. It sucks. Seek out good people wherever you can :)

Yeah well it’s called ‘heat’

Lol my ex made that YouTube video. Hilarious to see it here

Comrade.

Maybe this will get me to start programming seriously.

Christopher Street Day. Thats what the pride events ins German speaking countries are called.

trans meet ups are a way to meet cute people. When I lived in a rural area I would drive about an hour once a month to meet some at a meet up.

Now I live in a bigger city and there is a meetup about once a week.

Nooo, don’t call me out like that!

Unkraut in German. Doesn’t deserve to be called a Kraut.

• Weimar Republic
• Good Night White Pride(on German Wikipedia)
• First Opium War
• Finland–Russia relations
• Cambrian

I am only learning this now??!?!

Polish cow song. The melody itself is from another song, “How long - Lipps, inc” apparently. But both songs do well with that beat.

weird hill to die on