I work a 2 week rotating schedule. 6 nights on/8 night weekend. My 6 days are all in a row, Thursday - Tuesday. I work 2 - 16 hour shifts and 4 - 12 hour shifts which gives me 40 hours in 3 days and 80 hours in 6 days for my 2 week work week. I can pick up 2 16 hour shifts on my “weekend”, get 32 hours of OT, and still have 6 days off. It’s exhausting but I love it. When I’m really short money I’ve worked as many as 7 of my days off and really killed the OT. The downside is that when I work 16 hour shifts I only have time for about 3-4 hours of sleep between shifts what with commuting and showering and eating and getting ready for work and all so it can sometimes be brutal if I pick up too many back to back (I’ve done 3 or 4 in a row and by the end I just want to die).

The anime women are the worst. I don’t like anime, and I’m a heterosexual woman. I don’t want to see my feed consisting of endless half naked anime women. No thanks. Make them go away and stay away.

“Why this company specifically?”

“Because I’ve applied for 40 jobs, and you are the only one to call me back. I don’t even know what you do.”

2025 was also not great for me. Lots of bad stuff, and I lost the last of my friends in 2025 (not dead, just not friends anymore) and my family and relationships are long gone. I’m tired of being completely alone with no one to talk to or even just hang out with. When midnight came tonight I was sitting with one of my two cats on my lap, the only living things I have left. I looked at my cat and said well bud we made it through 2025, here’s hoping 2026 goes better. My wish is to make a friend.

I hope it goes better for you too.

I am proud of the fact that after years of being inactive (partially due to laziness, partially due to health issues that I’ve finally found a doctor who was willing to help me take care of) I rejoined the gym a few weeks ago and have been going regularly. It’s too soon to say I’ve made a habit of it, but it’s already the only good part of my week and I look forward to it, so I’m hoping I can stick with it despite my crazy work and school schedule. I miss being strong and fit.

Wow, congratulations, you should be proud of yourself. I can’t imagine your road here was easy. (No sarcasm intended).

On one hand, in 2009 I had hope my life would eventually improve and I would have a chance to be happy someday.

On the other hand, I was still a teenager and stuck living with my parents. I would rather be hopeless and paying half my income in rent than live with my abusive mother again.

Winnie the Pooh! The episode where they fall down the wishing well instilled in me a lifelong fascination with wishing wells.

I also used to watch a lot of the old Thomas the Tank Engine

Maybe that’s why they’re doing this. They’re a bunch of immature children who were never taught to share or get along with others and they don’t want anyone else to have better things than they do. Maybe they’ve finally come to terms with the fact that they’re going to die so they’re making sure that the world they leave behind is fucked. If they can’t have a future, we can’t either.

Hell I’m desperately trying to forget as much of my life as possible.

Yup. I got a 2 hour lecture in EMT school that dealt with all of mental health and psych emergencies and included a “hey by the way take care of yourself, you’re going to see some really fucked up shit, a large amount of first responders end up with PTSD, the suicide rate is through the roof, if you don’t figure out how to deal with it you’ll be part of those statistics too”. Super helpful. Nothing like the feeling of watching your paramedic partner and your supervisor both crying in the privacy of the back of the ambulance after the death of a child.

My phone wifi hotspot is Kaer Morhen. Not a clever pun at all, but it makes me happy.

Am an AEMT (advanced EMT). Work night shift. LOVE that shit. Hate the fact that the rest of the world insists on only existing dayside, so I have to get up during the day for appointments and school. I can’t have a sleep schedule because people don’t see an issue with making me do things at noon. How would they like it if I made them do shit at 2am?

Night shift is great. Life is better when the sun isn’t burning my retinas off and 90% of the population is sound asleep in their beds. I get to be in the earlier stages of my day as the sun is setting and ending it as the sun is rising, and that’s cool as shit. The best feeling ever is driving home as morning rush hour is starting and everyone is grumpy on their way to work and I’m on my way home to my nice comfy bed to sleep in peace.

Fuck shouldn’t you still be in elementary school? What happened to my fucking life?

I think e-bikes are such a problem in the US because we have such a car-sentric culture and the majority of people who are riding them seem to be people who lost their drivers licenses due to poor life decisions (AKA, dangerous driving or DUI) or are too young to get a drivers license in the first place. They take the same dangerous, stupid mentality and transfer it into their riding of the e-bikes. I drive an ambulance and every single day I see a suicidal idiot blitzing through traffic at top speed on an e-bike, running red lights and stop signs without even slowing down or looking, going the wrong way up one way roads in the middle of the lane, driving at 3am down the middle of the road with no lights (almost always going the wrong way and running stop signs), ignoring the blocked off bike lanes on the roads that do have them, or just generally being an absolute menace and an idiot. We have so many bikers getting seriously hurt or killed because of their antisocial behavior. I’ve almost hit a couple in my ambulance because they’re constantly pulling out right in front of me or simply trying to bike right into the side of my rig as I’m driving down the road doing the speed limit, forcing me to either swerve or possibly end their entire existence. They just assume that car drivers will get out of their way, which is a dumb assumption when most of the drivers are just as dumb and are fucking around on their phones. Suicidal fucking idiots with zero survival instincts. I have zero problems whatsoever with the ones who are responsible and follow traffic laws, but they seem to be in the low minority around here.

I’m in this meme and I don’t like it

I had a class where I had to write papers that couldn’t go above a certain word count or it would be an instant fail, it had to contain at least a minimum amount of text directly quoted and cited from my source material, and also couldn’t go above a 20% Turnitin score. I had every paper word-maxxed to the limit and of course Turnitin marked all of my quotations as plagiarized, it marked my entire citations page as plagiarized, and it also inexplicably marked every instance of the word “the” as plagiarized. Nothing else was marked plagiarized and I hit 20% on every paper I submitted. I complained to the instructor and told him the requirements were damn near impossible.

10 seconds and I’ve paid off my student loans, my car, and have enough left over to pay tuition for my upcoming year (attending school while working full time of course, because no one pays my living expenses and I get denied financial aid because I’m an adult who has too high of an income to qualify, because, ya know, I have to have an income to pay my damned rent).

So I fully admit to being far too ignorant of how this works, but at what point does someone international do something about this? Are there not international arrest warrants out for Putin? When does an international court put out an arrest warrant for Hesgeth or Trump and make it so they can’t leave the country? When does the international community start sanctioning the US for this bullshit?

“Hey you, you’re finally awake”

My industry is weird (it’s in my post history, so I’ll just say it, it’s EMS). A lot of ambulance companies don’t have someone to actively maintain a website. They might have a website but it might be a year or two out of date. It’s easier and cheaper for a supervisor to make a “we’re hiring! Email me your info!” post on Facebook, especially when that’s where everyone is anyway and that’s how everyone else is doing it. It’s a very informal and very odd industry.

We have to do so many hours of continuing education every year to maintain our certification and I have a co-worker who does the coolest trainings. I finally asked how he finds them because all I can ever find is the dryest, most boring classes. Of course the answer was Facebook. It’s all on Facebook. If you want to get into a new specialty, if you want a fun training, if you want to connect with providers who aren’t in your immediate circle, if you want to learn a new niche or find a company or a job across the country you need Facebook.