Abt switch
The Abt switch is a kind of railway switch used on funiculars (inclined cable railways) that doesn’t have any moving parts. It allows two cars to pass each other going uphill/downhill while sharing the same tracks. While most train switches rely on physically moving a section of track so the train goes one way or the other, the abt switch doesn’t move at all. Instead each carriage has a grooved wheel which makes it turn left or right at a junction by sticking to the track on one side.
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Guy who I encounter like once a month sees me. First thing he says “is your chest large or do you have titties?”
I’m not ready to stop boymodding. I’ve officially entered the twilight zone. I’ve wasted too much time doing 0 voice training or practice with makeup/clothes.
I still boymode even when I made an entirely new account whose name implying I would stop
Fr, I don’t want to be super fem, I just want to feel comfortable.
First of all that’s unhinged as fuck of that guy. I want to believe it’s his really dudebro way of asking you your pronouns.
I haven’t really voice trained, at least not enough to do my new voice in public on demand. I also dress a lot less femme than I used to most days. Usually cargo pants or jeans, a cami and t-shirt or if I feel like it, just a cami. And it’s just really comfy to do so, even in public. I would’ve put money on never transitioning because I’d never feel ready, just because it’s how everything else was going for me at the time. I don’t know how I summoned the strength to start HRT while feeling so unprepared, but I’m so thankful to whatever part of me just kept pushing me through it. And everyone who encouraged me.
I don’t know what exactly your situation is and if this is viable, but I just kinda started dressing androgynous and sometimes even femme, and coming out to whoever I was most comfortable with at the time one by one.
First of all that’s unhinged as fuck of that guy.
Yeah he talks like he is an edge lord from 2013.
I want to believe it’s his really dudebro way of asking you your pronouns.
Unfortunately, it isn’t.
coming out to whoever I was most comfortable with at the time one by one.
I’ve sort of been doing this as well
Many of my clothes are tattered, I need to buy new ones. A new vial of E is arriving and my boobs have grown bigger.
All the signs are gathering together. But I have a massive complex about wearing girls clothes.
They are a girl’s clothes when you own them you know
I dont dress super femme day to day, lots of graphic tee and pants (usually scrub bottoms cause Im working later). I do find women’s cuts fit better and I do have a nice hip to waist ratio
They are a girl’s clothes when you own them you know
… I never even considered this
You have a knack for saying very wise things that seem so simple and dumb in hindsight. Shows you’ve been there. Thanks for being a wise “elder” <3
being shitty and making this about me
Low key the thing I’m most scared of happening and probably what will happen in another year or so to me. Fuck I hate thinking about that.
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No worries, you aren’t being shitty. Adding on your own takes is the point of a comment thread.
But yeah, having your stealth be pierced through can be quite scary. Buy everything about this process is scary when one does it with 0 support from other irl people.
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Thank you
Yea ngl I’m not sure if scary is a strong enough word. I do not want that to happen to me.
Being alone irl sucks bad :meow-hug:
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Low key I think about killing myself to avoid that phase a lot, I just hate the thought of that so much, fuck.
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I think it is inevitable. There is a limit to how much I can keep myself in an isolated bubble. How can I call myself a socialist if I don’t even socialise
I just wish there was a way for me to unpack my trauma and self-loathing
I know that I can be a pretty cool gal, when I get my rare moments of peace and clarity.
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Yea it is, tbh as it gets closer I am definitely going to be talking about suicide and hating being trans a lot more then I already do
Real
Came out to my trans friends! (I wonder why I had a bunch of trans friends while presenting cis lol)
using my evil moderator powers to see who upvotes me so i know who will back my coup
waow I’m back
I hung out on 4t4 for awhile, but it’s starting to get too negative for me again.Welcome back.
welcome back
Welcome back, missed having you around.
Hihi
Holy shit I actually got a job. Good god that was hard but I’ll actually have some income so I can buy food and pay rent and not be living off favors like I’ve been for the past several months.
yayayayayay good job (haha)
I enjoy having thick thighs
i’ve been informed that they save lives
I suddenly feel so happy that I’m a girl
. All I ever wanted.We get to be girls! Its the greatest feeling ever~
yayayayay
wrrraaaufffi fucking love being girl
Love this for us!
This warms my heart
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Fuck I’m lonely
I hate being so alone
Two notes on this, one is everyone asking me what I did this weekend. I did fuck all. Second, work gave me two tickets to a local haunt and I don’t have anyone to go with.
But mostly just being alone sucks.
✨️ 🪄
Casting a magic spell to make the sadness go away!
We’re all here for you. Spaceships pinging each other in the wide cosmos.
*hugs*
yea… yea
I’m tired boss
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I have once again concluded this shitty life isn’t for me and isn’t worth living. I dont have the capacity or motivation or whatever the fuck to actually improve and just want to wish them away. But they will not go away, they can’t, it is inescapable. Nothing is going to fix me or this god awful situation I’m in.
going to go scroll and go to bed. Then get up early to work the extra shjit I signed up for.
On the topic of being trans and playing d&d flavored games; as a feminine trans masc I’ve always played and identified with the appearance of elves. Im practically elf gender!
The only trans masc thing Ive see a lot of is flower tattoos. Dunno what’s up with trans mascs and flower tattoos, the tats do look good though!
Emotions are hitting harder
By emotions I mean sadness I keep getting to the verge of tears
Yeah sadness was the big one for the first bit. Going from never crying to crying at the drop of a hat can take adjustment. Eventually, emotionally, you get to experience way more and different and more fine grain than before with dysphoria and T.
I am less angry than I was before HRT but feminine rage is absolutely real and I get that.
I hear that happens. You partially inspired me to hit up my doc for hrt so hopefully I can join you in the tears soon :)
You’re going to make me cry :doggirl-cry: like actually am though…
Good job starting hrt!
I didn’t mean to make it worse! and thank you, I don’t know how long it will take, but it’s been so long I don’t mind waiting a bit longer
:kitty-cri: no no it’s okay… not your fault just a bit emotional…
If it sounds like the wait list is long just diy, it’s not that hard. That’s what I’m doing
Good for you, that’s an exciting step to take!
It’s exciting! A little scary, not a fan of doctors generally, but it’ll be worth it
Lol my appointment got pushed back months, but it turns out they are on leave, so now I’m speaking to somebody on Wednesday :)))))))))
The first couple months can be emotionally tumultuous, but once it calms down it can be nice to feel things differently. That’s how it was for me anyway.
the financial feasability of leaving the US is looking less than ideal for us. woof
Real, Idek where would take me. If only I burned out after college.
nsfw talk, VCPD notified
i went out the other day to hook up with this one trans girl i met online and she brought her fucking girlfriend too and uhhhhhhhhhh hot trans girl sex still has me loopy and stupid many hours later
i’m just giggling like an idiot to myself thinking of how much t girl i just kissed and it’s making me so stupid and loopy and i can’t think about anything else and i feel fucking great
the downside to all of this
activity is that my everything is sore now. OWIE
This episode in the life of EstraDoll might just get me to put myself back out there and have some fun before I leave this country.
I life my transition to be an inspiration to trans people everywhere and I’m glad I’m doing my job :)
anti volcel aktion (cw kink)
So uhh i had a lovely time this week
I visited a friend. Wasnt expecting sex, was expecting platonic time with my friend. Instead i met a ton of lovely trans women, lost track of how many people i made out with, had a ton of super kinky sex, the group sex was so fun (at what point is it an orgy?) Tons of cuddles and joy, got covered in bite marks (my legs are literally more bruise than not bruise, deep purple pretty ones too), and like idek what bites came from who (wheres my bitemark analysis people at? I need yalls help (jkjk ik its bunk)). At one point there was something on tv, we were all watching it (7-9 of us? Idk) and i was cuddling with this other bottom, abd my friend the domme came over and they both just went to town on me, left me feeling so full of joy (and bruises lol). Nothing like having a domme administer poppers while two others inflict such joyous pain upon me in front of literally everyone, being choked and suffocated to keep me quiet so others could enjoy the tv, god i loved it.Third injection done, end of week 2. Air bubbles are a pita. I think I can draw more then my dose and push it back into the vial though? So it ends up working out.
Cried more then usual this week, more tears, other then that nothing to report. Injection also hurt less then last time so maybe I just got unlucky and hit a nerve or something.
Thats what I do at work and for myself. I always draw more than I need and push up the remainder and any bubbles out the needle and measure out exactly with the needle amd syringe full after. For myself only (I dont do this at work unless its prefilled) I do use a bubble at the very top of the injection to push ALLL the E in. I wouldnt recommend it necessarily because if you do it wrong you are creating subq emphysema but also… really I dont think its a big deal and just a bit of mindfulness during the injection would catch it.
I think you’ll be feeling the low dose antidepressant soon~ a few weeks of crying way more than youre used to and I think in the next week or the week following you’ll notice things aren’t quite as hard as they used to be and things dont hurt as much (they still might but more easilt).
draw double and some of your dose and then push it out into the vial to your dose, should deal with any air bubbles (and any left will be too small to be significant) (not that they really are significant tho ppl have anecdotaly reported more pain)
Okay cool, ty. Air bubbles would mean less dose though right? Sounds very significant… less precious estrogen…
with the different viscosity of oil etc it looks like a llt more in the end
i switched from im to subq and despite now experiencing what looks like a significant amount of leakage in reality my levels are the exact same :3
if you have a large enough air bubble yes itll mess with dosage, but at that point its not an air bubble more just… space that wasnt filled
Oh damn, I haven’t had anything but (sometimes) the tiniest pin prick of blood imaginable come back out.
Fair, I’m not sure where the line between air bubble and empty space is tbh
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